EMO RANT BEGINS HERE
~*Life*~
Heh, oh boy...It has been a while hasn't it? The last few months have been busy, somewhat why there's been my absense. Things...haven't been going so hot for me lately. I'm having issues coping with life after high school. I had my college orientation last week only to find that I have no idea how to make friends anymore. All of my "friends" I have now I've had for years, I'm incapable of making friends. Orientation was an awkward turn of events where I fit in no where and that's the leading part of my anxiety for school. One of my greatest fears in life is being alone and I feel that going to school is going to do that to me. No one I know is going to my school with me and that scares me to some extent. I'll be going to a brand new school with no one I know and no idea how I'm supposed to find new friends. Big deal, get over it, you say. I agree, but I can't...I don't think the anxiety is going to leave me for a long while.
On top of that, things are sort of in the air with my boyfriend. I love him to death and I fear that we're slowly falling apart. Conversation struggles to be formed, awkward silences abound and the lack of communication is killing me. I don't even want to think what is going to happen once I leave for school next year. The distance is only going to increase and I don't know how we'll handle that. I don't know if he thinks the same, but we need a lifeline unless I'm just completely delusional which i don't doubt.
In the midst of that is my hellish job. It's gotten better now that I've learned how to lie through my teeth and pretend everything is fucking beautiful and bright with the world. The downside, I'm not getting nearly enough hours anymore. My paychecks keep getting smaller and smaller and it's getting impossible for me to find work elsewhere for now. It's really frustrating me to barely come ahead with every paycheck, especially when school is right around the corner.
I really don't know what to do with my life right now. I know a lot of it isn't going to get better at all until well into the fall. That makes a fun time for me, stressing and anxious for the next few months. I just want to fall asleep and not wake up, as emo as that sounds. I want everything to be fine again, but it's not going to be...

On a brighter note....TRANSFORMERS FTW!!!!!!!!! *ahem* That movie was epic and I'm partially glad I went to the midnight showing. It was fun, despite the hell we waited through in line, thank you Marcus theaters...Go see it, in my opinion, it's better than the first movie.

~*Art*~
Don't worry, I haven't been completely slacking in my artistic duties...I've just been slacking in putting them on here. I have a few projects from school and a new one I started on my own for the summer. Hopefully I'll get around to actually uploading a few >.>